Devotional #16: The Truth – Oh How He Loves Us

I had the sense that I’d been asleep for a very long time—my body was stiff, like I hadn’t moved once through all that time, either….My mind was dazed and slow; strange colorful dreams—dreams and nightmares—swirled dizzily around the inside of my head….And there were plenty of monsters, red-eyed fiends that were all the more ghastly for their genteel civility. But the strongest, clearest part of the dream was not the horror. It was the angel that was most clear.

I thought of the night in Port Angeles when I’d had my first delusion. I’d come up with two options. Insanity or wish fulfillment. I’d seen no third option. But what if…

[I’d had an epiphany.]

What if you sincerely thought something was true, but you were dead wrong? What if you were so stubbornly sure that you were right, that you wouldn’t even consider the truth? Would the truth be silenced, or would it try to break through?
Option three: Edward loved me. The bond forged between us was not one that could be broken by absence, distance, or time. And no matter how much more special or beautiful or brilliant or perfect than me he might be, he was as irreversibly altered as I was. As I would always belong to him, so would he always be mine….



“Your epiphany?” he asked, his voice uneven and strained.

“You love me,” I marveled. The sense of conviction and rightness washed through me again.

“Truly, I do.”
New Moon – Chapter 23, 24

I’m not sure how many of you have heard the very-popular song “Oh How He Loves us,” sung by Kim Walker, but it’s truly fantastic, and it’s hard not to see the parallels between this song and the above passage from New Moon.

How much of God’s effort has been to simply communicate His love to the earth? Everything He does is to simply bring us closer. Even His loathing of sin—I challenge—is most rooted in it’s devastating ability to separate us from Him. And that, is sin’s greatest offense to the heart of God. Such is His jealousy for us.

If we could just get this. Be convinced. I’m only beginning to feel the droplets, when God really wants to send a monsoon.

In everything that has happened, this moment is the true climax of the book. Twilight was the beginning, the love at first meeting between mortal and divine….New Moon tests that love and our faith in it. After all, a faith untested is a faith unfounded. Just as Bella and Edward’s love could not mature without this terrible desert time, so our love relationship with Christ cannot mature without a time of heavenly silence and withdrawal.

As we continue onward, we must face even greater tests,challenges, and choices: we must choose between our earthly loves and our beloved,  finally face our enemy, and decide to forsake everything if we are keep going. While the book references Eclipse as Edward’s moon seizing the place of Jacob’s sun, our eclipse is something else: it is the blazing light of the Son as it takes full possession of everything we were, as it makes us what we will be.

Are you ready to face the Eclipse ? 🙂


~ by sarahthebaker on February 18, 2010.

One Response to “Devotional #16: The Truth – Oh How He Loves Us”

  1. Ah… Amen, sister. To everything. That song is so simple, yet incredibly powerful and moving once we let it seep in, get under the skin, penetrate our walls, hit the mark.. Write on!

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